Friday, April 5, 2013

Just Jennifer


The Never List by Koethi Zan (Pamela Dorman Books, July 2013)

After best friends Sarah and Jennifer were in a car accident that killed Jennifer’s mother, the two created a “never list”; a list of things to be avoided at all costs.  The two plan everything down to the last detail, including their freshman year of college, to ensure their safety.  Sometimes, even though the girls don’t believe in it, fate intervenes, and despite their best plans, one night the girls get into a cab, a ride that changes their lives forever.  Jennifer and Sarah spend the next three years held captive a cellar with two other girls.  Their captor is obsessed with torture and how much the human body-and sprit-can withstand.  Sarah escaped and led authorities to rescue the other two girls, but to Sarah’s knowledge, Jennifer did not survive the ordeal.
Ten years of careful planning and living later, Sarah has still not dealt with the horror of her captivity and lives her life as a captive of her own making.  By mutual agreement, the three surviving women have changed their identities and have never spoken of these events to each other.  Now Jack Derber is up for parole and as much as Sarah wants to see him rot in prison, she also wants to learn what happened to Jennifer and her body; Sarah things that the letters she has been receiving from Derber may contain clues to what happened to Jennifer, but also suspects her other counterparts have been receiving the same letters which may contain different clues that together will lead her to her friend.  Back in Portland for the first time in ten years, Sarah finds herself drawn into Jack Derber’s world including the secret world of BDSM, cults and ancient torture.  As she brings Tracy and Christine back to their worst nightmare, Sarah learns that the three were not in their ordeal together and that the other two still harbor grudges against her.
Fast-paced and disturbing, this multi-layered plot slowly reveals layer upon layer as Sarah thinks she has dealt with what has happened to her, but realizes she hasn’t, that she has just been hiding as she tries to control her environment.  As Sarah searches for her friend, she confronts her fears and learns things about herself that surprise her and things she doesn’t necessarily like.  Her journey to find Jennifer becomes one of healing and self-actualization.  A couple of rescue scenes as the book progresses seem unlikely but the reunite three women in Portland where they need to be to face the horrors of their past, find the answers to give themselves the closure they need to move on with their lives. 

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